Maybe I’m just bad at relationships
Or maybe people, do not know how to love
I have made up my mind
I am done
I am content with being on my own
I accept that maybe I’m supposed to be alone
In my thoughts
But if the time comes where you walk in
I’ll be ready
With open arms
Only if you mean
I need to hear you say something
Just a hey or a hi
Start the conversation
All you have to do is try
Am I crazy to think that you would want someone like me?
We are on two different levels
From what I see
You are successful
I am still trying to get by
So you tell me
If this thing is real or a lie
I can’t just let you go
But I am not desperate enough
To chase a shadow
The fear of rejection can be hard
I’ll show you a heart that is scarred
Yet, if you never move closer
We will never know
If a notion of love could grow
Leaving me to make a decision
No longer being in your vision
You fucked me
You fucked with
My h e a r t
My m I n d
My e m o t I o n s
My l i f e
My b o d y
A place I should have, never let you explore
But it’s the only thing that kept me coming back
for m o r e
My greatest revenge
is letting you see
I am okay
On my own
You may have left me on my knees
But you did not break me
I have taken the rain from my eyes
and made a thunderstorm from my tenacity
You were a lesson I had to learn
The heartbreak that once took me to the point of no return
Has left the old me to burn
Thank you for helping me to see what I want and need
For helping plant the seed
that will one day lead me to love that succeeds
I am a dreamer
Not a fighter
I am not a schemer
And would rather give than to be the receiver
I dream of a time that will ignite and excite
When a light at the end of the tunnel will be in sight
I believe in the ability to feel free
In love and fate
That good things happen to those who wait
The power of an individual’s might
and that anything can be conquered if you just take flight
Playing with these demons, they’ve become my best friends
Dancing around all the parts of my head
Full of deceit and anger with no invitation to attend
Trying to make me lose my peace of mind is what they intend
I’ve given more of myself to people than I can defend
I just want to forget the world exists as I fall asleep in my own bed
After saving others for so long, who will come to my aid?
When I have needed them the most, they all go astray.
So I turn to the voices in my brain
The only ones who have stayed.
I am not where I want to be but I am closer than ever before.
I can feel the adrenaline in my veins preparing me to soar.
When will this door open, where I can stand for something much bigger than this war?
There is a world waiting to be explored.
With a sense of adventure that cannot be ignored.
I am ready to break through these chains and let the nation hear my roar.
Yet I still feel like it is an eternity away, as I stand by this shore, waiting and wishing for the day to settle the score.
I will persevere in the hopes of a miracle within the year.
Like a mountaineer I will hold on till the storm clouds disappear.
I foresee something out there being greater than the expectations I have in my dreams.
Eventually I will get to my destination, but until then I will continue to go down stream.
My heart has been ripped out of my chest
Squeezed so tight that the vessels have burst
Given back to me in my own hands
In a bloody heap of what was once whole
Thrown against a wall repeatedly
Leaving the stain of misery dripping down to the floor
Before wounds could fully heal
Another knife was being thrown
My heart has been kicked through the dirt like a stone
That no one gave a shit about
Set on fire only to have it burned down to ash
Descending from the sky above
Yet, I still believe in Love.
I’m a lost soul, just the same as you.
Let’s fly away into the night sky together, until we’re out of view
Show me where your dreams hide so I can chase the stars along your avenue.
Bring out that inner child in Neverland, the imagination we once knew.
Do not worry about pleasing people who have no clue.
The boy grew into a man but sometimes it’s okay to not have a plan.
To have a little fun and pretend we are Peter Pan.
But if you falter in your fantasy, I’ll be the doorman who holds the key to get you back to reality.
We all at some point feel like we are racing through life like a grand prix.
I want to be by your side through it all though, this is my plea as you travel the sea.
Like a bird with the wind carrying their wings, this is the definition of being free.
Hey pretty girl you’re too beautiful to cry
I can tell by the lakes and redness in your eyes
You’ve been holding onto the pain too long
Burying it deep with the same old song
It’s okay to be vulnerable when you feel, life’s all wrong
You don’t always have to be so strong
You’re safe in my arms where you belong